OUCH.....

My back is hurting so bad this morning. I woke up and had to take extra pain meds. It's been tough detoxing from these pain meds. I don't know if I can do it. I'm in a lot of pain today. I get my health insurance back on the 1st of November. I might have to go back on pain meds. Who knows. As for my diet, forget being a Vegetarian. I can't do it. I kept waking up in the morning with no energy. It made me sick. I needed the protein from the meat that I was so used to getting back in my diet. So I am back to eating meat. I ate an In & Out cheeseburger last night and it was so freaking good. I am still down 10 pounds. Anyways, I'm going to watch last night's episode of Dexter right after I finish this pointless blog. I just felt like blogging this morning to keep my mind off this freaking back pain. This season is so good so far. I tivo'd it last night cause my daughter had homework and the TV was distracting her. My poor baby. She didn't finish all her homework until midnight last night. That's how much homework she had. She's not in regular honors classes she is in Advanced Honors. All her classes are AP/SAS. They are preparing her for a 4 year college already and she is only in the 6th grade. How did my little girl get to be so smart. I am so proud of her. To top it all off she got picked out of 25 girls to be on a special drill team that is going to perform in Tokyo, Japan 東京 next summer August 2010. I get to go with her. I'm so excited and so proud of my lil girl. She is doing so good in drill team. They get to perform in Hawaii in April 2010. So I get to do some traveling next year. I can't wait. I have never been out of the country. Except for Vancouver, Canada in 2006 but that was only for like 12 hours then we had to leave and fly to LAX. That was part of our cruise. We took a cruise from San Pedro, California to Astoria, Oregon and then onto Vancouver, Canada and flew back to LAX on Air Canada. It was fun but I have always wanted to travel to a foreign and exotic location and Japan has been on that list for some time now. I can't wait!!! So anyways READER have a Happy Monday. I'm off to watch Dexter now. Until next time, Sayonara =)

OMG......

So much for being a Vegetarian. My dad went out to dinner with my brother tonight and brought home the most delicious left overs in the world. They went to Ruth's Chris Steakhouse in Orange County and I ate a slice of my dad's steak. First of all it was like cutting through butter. It was so good, but I feel bad though =( I so wish my actions were like a DVR. I could just hit the rewind button and just eat the bread and asparagus and then hit the live button, hahhaha, lol. But I feel so damn guilty. I guess I'm trying to be something that I'm not. Maybe I'm meant to eat meat. I am 1/4 American Indian from the Black Foot Tribe in Browning, Montana. I am so confused. I was so hungry about 1/2 hour ago. The good news is, is that I lost another 3lbs. That makes a grand total of 15lbs so far. Good Night READER =(

VERONICA SAWYER SMOKES........

I love that song by AFI on their new album "Crash Love" It is my favorite so far. BTW, I have lost 12 pounds. I am basically on a liquid diet right now. Protein shakes and stuff. I still haven't eaten meat, going on 2 months very soon. Fruits and Veggies are my best friends, but in juice form for now =) and I am detoxing, all by myself, from all my pain meds. I do not want to die like Anna Nicole Smith, Heath Ledger, Michael Jackson or DJ A.M. I am basically taking the same powerful pain meds at high doses they all have taken and O.D'd on. I have a little girl to raise and she is the most important person in my life. I will deal with my back pain through mediation and homeopathic remedies if I need to. But the last procedure I had on my back was a success. Have a great Thursday READER =)